Zephyr

That moment you feel it brushing against your skin. Light and gentle. Like the lightest fabric softly falling taking the form on which it falls. Your eyes closed. You don’t see. You anticipate. Your feelings rise as if the gentle breeze is from within. And then it comes, that feeling. At that instant, that moment where your skin feels the first particles of air gliding over it, the rising feeling swells up inside you to completeness. That feeling of heightened calm, not too excited, but comforted since what you have been waiting for has finally happened. That gentle flutter against your skin continues. As it continues, the swelling feelings settle at that state, and now instead of growing, the feeling completes. It reaches a state of fulfillment. You can’t help but smile. You can’t explain it, but you can feel it. What it made you feel. You want it to be a part of you, you want to take it in, you take a deep breath gently inviting all those particles of air into you. You feel it filling you up. Now that feeling is complete, you elevate it.

Finally, you open your eyes.

Uncertainty

As a concept, uncertainty deals with the idea that any outcome cannot be guaranteed. We may choose to believe that we are certain but in reality the uncertainty of everyday decisions is clear. If I bounce a ball off a wall, it will most definitely bounce back. At least, that is what we expect. The issue here is not necessarily the outcome being possible or not, but the feeling of uncertainty and doubt itself. These feelings bring anxiety and stress that is almost always unnecessary.

Accept uncertainty, accept the doubt and uneasiness, and let is pass. That is what I believe one should do to be able to overcome this type of anxiety. At least this is one way it can be dealt with. Another option can be to somehow guarantee an outcome by thinking of all possible scenarios which is not always possible. Calmness and acceptance is the best possible solution. Instead of controlling the exterior and the world around us, we can control ourselves, our reactions at first and then slowly work to control our expectations and feelings of uncertainty.

Positivity is always possible. Adversity and conflict are inevitable. The power within is mostly greater than you think it is so utilize it, nurture it, and get control of it.

Express beyond Words

You feel it sometimes? Your self filling up with a feeling so exhilarating and elating you feel light and focused. You wonder what it is that caused it, whether you are able to figure that out or not, you decide you want to do something to make the feeling stick there, right there, at that level it is at the moment. So you engage in an activity whatever it may be that you are sure will keep you there, up there. You impress yourself there is a hint of a smile there too. You praise yourself at the decision of taking action, that step forward that you know will be perfect for how you are currently feeling.

You may reach the point where you realise how important it is what it is you’re doing. You feel that it is destiny that you are doing it. This is how it is meant to be. Your path shines ahead of you. You see the path light up and you feel it inviting you to take a stroll, to take action, forward, pushing you to your destiny.

All this of course while maintaining that feeling. The one where you feel that not only are you in a peaceful place, but that you are actively enjoying this peace and making something worthy out of it. It doesn’t have to be something complicated but something simple that hits the right spots as you move along in your journey of adventure within the confines of your peacefulness.

The key here? Focus. The truth is focus is the key to many things, however here, focus enables a true and more complete consumption of the peacefulness state. It reenergises and restores at times a sense of self that gets lost in everyday actions and engagements.

Revisiting Decisions

It hits you sometimes when you realize that the decision you made might not have been the best when the outcome you expected is not what you are getting. What would you do then? Sometimes you’d accept it and just live with the outcome you got. Other times you’d complain and show your disappointment with the outcome. Other times you’d try to maybe do something about it, to fix whatever it is that has happened.

I believe sometimes, what you really need to do is visit the core of the issue, try again, from the roots and by any means try again and then maybe get the original expected outcome. This doesn’t work with everything. Some things in life are a one time opportunity. But even then, can nothing be done to fix whatever it is that has been done? Do we just live with the consequences and the disappointing outcome and just hope for the best next time? Or do we revolt against it and do the unexpected, the impossible, the unprecedented to reach whatever outcome we wished for in the beginning?

When is the time to actually stop trying to change things that do not seem changeable? Or is there never a time to stop? Should we do what we can to make things work around what decisions we made? Some may say just move on and don’t dwell on the past. Some say just move forward and don’t look back, change your course in the direction you want and just try again with something else. Some may say that you did your best and going back will just be wasting time.

What do I believe? I’m a strong believer in trying again and doing it maybe a little differently to get the right outcome the next time around. Whether I do decide to do that requires tons of thinking on my part. I’d most likely only try again after studying the issue from the beginning, not in a very systemic way though but in quite a very chaotic type thought process. Scattered thoughts, scattered emotions, and scattered actions. I’d hope for the best, and if I do get a satisfying outcome then I’d be pleased with myself.

The Big Picture

A deep feeling bubbles to the top. All you can think about is how you feel. You look around and all you see is what you are in, unable to get out. No way out. You take another look, and what you see takes you to other places. The feelings pulling you back, but you fight it, to get out. You take a step back and see that what you feel is not everything there is, but there are other things you can look at and feel. You take another step back, and another, until you realize what you felt is so small compared to what your life is all about.

You take one more look around, you realize, that the feeling you felt in the beginning is more familiar. You don’t want to lose it, no matter how difficult it is. You walk back, back into the center and you fill yourself with the feelings you started with. This, feels more real that anything else. You take it all in. You are it.

There are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart’s desire. The other is to gain it.

– George Bernard Shaw, Man and Superman

Under Air, Above Water

The first thing you notice are the sounds. Deep as though there is no end, echoing but muffled, like there is something unclear about what it is you are hearing. You take a split second to adjust to the sounds. The next thing you notice is the cool liquid on your skin, so cool, so smooth like a pair of hands cupping your face. When you move, the liquid moves with you, not against you, still gently upon your face, and head, and neck. You start to realize you need to breath but you cannot help enjoy the feeling of being under water. You open your eyes, things aren’t clear but you see blue, blue until the depths of the area you are in. You take it all in, enjoy it, close your eyes and move your head around wanting to stay in just a little longer but you want to take a breath.

You hold on till the last second.. till you have to get out of the water.

You pull yourself up. The blinding light is what you notice first. Your eyes still closed, you open them and your eyes adjust to the light still seeing blue, a different blue this time. The wind rushes against your face, cooling you down as the droplets of water descend your cheeks to your chin and fall into the water. You open your mouth, and you take a full and complete breath of fresh air filling up your lungs, rushing your body with oxygen. You feel so fresh. Then as the water slowly trickles out of your ear, the muffled sounds slowly get louder and clearer, more so as more water leaves your ears. You blink, and it all comes together– the breeze tickling your face and hair, the sunlight and endless blue sky, and the sounds of the crashing waves…

…You can’t help but smile.

Longing

Your eyes fall upon something, and your vision fades and all you see is a memory. A memory triggered by what you saw, or a scent, or even a way something felt. Your vision blurs and all you see is the memory, it comes into focus. The sounds get louder, the image clears up, and you see so clearly the memory that you are reliving.

After it becomes clear, something else starts to happen, you regain the emotions attached to this memory, your heart skips a beat, your body starts to feel warmer, you take a short breath, not wanting to leave this memory behind. You live it, in the moment, and you recall how much you wish for that moment to keep on going.

It makes you feel good to remember, to be in that moment again like you never left it.

You hold on to it, get deeper in it, and all you live is in your memory.

You don’t want to let go, you want to live within it forever.

You miss it.

You long for it.

Cannot wait to feel it again.

Are You Sure?

You hesitate. You think you want to but you stop to think. You weigh the thoughts, the emotions, and the consequences. You measure each outcome, yet you find out that you want more. More of what? You’re not sure, but you know it isn’t enough. You think about how you can make it more. You can’t, not unless things change drastically. You wonder, you still have to make a decision but you aren’t sure yet. What should you do? Which option should you take? You think, yet, you want to make a decision. You were not sure — not then. So, are you sure now?